It's been ages since i updated xanga. I didn't feel like writing in it so i almost thought about giving up. In fact I'm still not gonna write here much. It will become a compulsive thing, when i want to write then I will write, can be once every week, or once in 3 months. Anywayz, that's the reason i havn't been writting for so long, I didn't have the heart to blog. And a blog is pretty much meaningless if it's not from the heart, otherwise you are just writing fictions to make yourself feel bettter (or feel worse). So there.
This entry is gonna be brutally honest.
For the last two months, I have been working and writing my Masters thesis. Juggling between work and school, it's been the biggest challenge i have ever had to endure. Whenever I am not at work, i would be writing my thesis and neither is easy to do. I have dedicated 90% of my life to these two things. Week in and week out for the past 6 weeks, I am exhausted and completely burned out from my schedule. I can honestly say i have never had to work so hard then the last 6 weeks of my life. This is beyond anything I have expereince. Yes, it's a good test for me, it's gonna pay off big time when I get my degree, but now I can wish nothing more than for this kind of insane lifestyle to be over (which it will be, in a few more days).
So that pretty much sums up what i've been doing for the last 2 months, thesis and work.
As for my work work, i'm 3 months in, there's been some ups and downs. Well, lately, less ups than downs. I've learnt by experience that there's a clear distinction betweem being criticized and being unappreciated. To be criticized, it usually involve you doing something wrong and as a result, getting comments (usually negative) from your superior aka.boss. but to be unappreciated, it means you accomplish something, and just as you are getting all excited about it, your boss doesn't acknowledge the hard work, the final product might be used, but you feel none of the credit goes to you, that's being unappreciated. In my office, I have been both critized and unapprecited, and i can truly say, nothing feels worse than being unappreciated, for something that you worked so hard for but no one notices. There's good thing about my job, I am learning new things everyday, the projects are meaningful. But lately, I don't feel much pleasure from working, maybe its the long hours or the pressure of deadline for clients, but no, the pressure and late nights i can handle those. It's being unappreciated, for not getting any credits for the work put in, while getting critized at the simplest of mistakes. That's what makes my job sucks.
I am staying positive. Just do what I got to do and staying positive and hope things will change.
I have survived my first 2 weeks of work, it has gone by so very quickly. On my first week, my boss has pretty much thrown me into the middle of the projects. I had my first deadline on my first Friday which they assigned me to prepare a planning report which i had no idea how to do at all. Because everyone was so busy, they just gave me a few examples of what to prepare and that was it. I pretty much had to work on things on my own, I guess I did alright with the report, because my boss said he looked at it and said 'it was fine'. haha... As for the working atmosphere, it's similar to most HK offices, cramped spaces and lots of people rushing around to get their work done before some kind of deadlines. I will be given more responsibilities later on, i think i will be involve with a few MTR projects like the Shatin-Central Link and among other design projects that we have to prepare proposals for. It sounds pretty exciting, i have looked at some of the plans MTR has got for the next 10, 20 yrs. I can promise there will be a few new lines and many new stations coming. The MTR is crazy.
Ok, enough about work. This weekend, I went bowling for the first time in HK. I remember as a child, there used to be a lot of places to go bowling. But today, they are get fewer and fewer. The one we went to is located in Amoy Plaza in Kowloon bay. It's a pretty decent place, reasonable prices and very tidy (no cigarette smoke smell). I think i will most likely play again. Who is interested?
Tomorrow will be the beginning of something new and exciting. I will give it my all, bring it on, bring it! ahh So after, high school, college, internship, more school, I am finally entering the real working world. I am excited, yet so nervous. But first thing first, gotta get to bed now.
Shenzhen is quite an interesting place. I went up there last
weekend to visit my MUD classmate. I ended up getting a oil massage and ate
some very spicy food. Anywayz, the impression I got for SZ is that it's a
modernizing place with a lot of the things that are similar to Hong Kong. The
malls, the hotels, office buildings. And one thing I really like, all the
landscaping around the streets, lots of trees and green spaces. That's
something you won't see on Nathan or Hanessy Rd. I expect to go
back there for a longer stay next time around.
I have been thinking about committing to a workout that will give me some much
needed meat on my flimsy arms. lol . So i decided that I would buy some
dumbells. The ones I got came in a case and when you put all the pieces of
plates on you get 15 pounds on each side of the dumbell. It's not that heavy so
I think I might try to buy extra plate to beef it up later on. Just for the record,
I am not trying to be buff, just trying to keep a little be of shape. Just need
to do enough i guess. haha
Three more weeks to the semester, everything will be done in these next few
weeks. Bring it, bring it on!!
Lastly, gotta plug a youtube artist I've recently discovered. Her name is Marie
Digby and the song that I can't stop listening to is called "Stupid For
You". Amazingly talented and very beautiful ahhhhh
Ok, yeah I know, has been a long time, the important thing is I am back, ain't I?
For the past month or so, school has been what’s
occupying, I would say, 90% of my life. During which I’ve had to shrink my
social life into a minimal. Missing out on dates with friends and family. It’s
coming down to the final stretch soon and I can only imagine that I would be
even more engulfed into my projects and finals. I guess the only thing that I
can motivate myself is to look at the big picture. In a few months I will get
my masters, how cool man…so I consider the 12 hr days and the late night studio
sessions a small sacrifice.
JUNO is an awesome movie, one of my best movie so far this
year. Even better is its soundtrack. I am hooked to all the songs in the movie.
Watching something like Juno just pushed my movie making aspiration that much
more. Nowadays, every time I see a good movie, I just get the urge to start
making stuff again.
Can anyone explain to me what’s so cool about the dances
that the Uni. students like so much about? The power of hip-hop dances at school
has reach rockstar status. At any given moment during the day (or night), some
group of people would be dancing. They are EVERYWHERE. It’s like the whole
school, everyone is doing it… I just don’t get it, do people like dancing THAT
much?
In the next couple of weeks, I will start writing my
dissertation. It is going to be the biggest amount of work that I will have to
do for a single project ever. Let’s hope that I will be up for it and produce something
half-decent. After that, I am gonna get my masters and then, what I will do
with that will be something very very interesting…
